sometimes i realli confused. confused abt wad am doing is right or wrong, confused whether im really happy or just deceiving myself that i m happy, at times i will stop to ponder whether ive made the right decision in life or have i took the wrong path again? hais... lots of question marks seemed to flood my mind and its making mi feel kinda weird inside. Right now, i shd just place 100% focus on studies, but im always always easily distracted gosh! i hate this!!! did nothing today as usual..time wait for no man!!! ahw~ this is killing mi :(
grad's over... its like so fast... ill be taking my As soonn. i realli wan to get into UNI mans.. NTU OR NUS!!! no matter wad, so now i hve to waste no time or else i shall regret. Lots of stuff happened man during this period of time :( ups and downs in life. seemed like i m facing lots of unhappy stuff. Family, health, studies and even my feelings are giving me problems. i shall not blame anyone i guess, maybe its just mi thats makin everyone sad and even me myself is giving myself tons and tons of problems!
but at times, i realli feel kinda of disappointed when you actualli dun place mi as so impt in ur life. sometimes, i also dun seems to understand u that well, i thought i knew u but maybe i was wrong. i feel that i always seems to be the one who is always that thinkg of you wanting to see you. Maybe i m just a hindrance to you. but i nv deny that u reali brought so much laughters to my life. really. i feel kinda insignificance and nth in front of u, cos i m so imperfect, so not good, so BAD.. hais its okay i shall stop seeing u le. cos we need to study for As! i noe u ll definitely do so well.. but i jus cant stop worrying for the fact that u always nv bother to tk care of ur health.. guess im tired.
Steffi:)