I've had enough le, i guess. Maybe i shan't deceive myself anymore by always finding excuses to mk myself feeling better each and everytime. Wells, perhaps if i were to leave at this point of time, you ll also wun salavage it cos anywae its not the first time. Am i demanding too much? I ponder... Everytime, i ll always pray hard and cross my fingers that things ll really change for the better and i ll seriously be happy and place my total trust onto you but somehow, i couldnt.It's not that i dun allow myself to do so but is you who always mk me feel that. I feel that u are not really putting lotsa attention and love on me. Sometimes, it makes me feel as if u are really taking advantage of me, den be so insensitive to me. Enough of those crap and nonsense when u always defend urself by saying u dun mean it and u really like me. Its nt as if i am dumb okay? If a guy really like his girl, he will definitely be super uptight abt her and her feelings and stuff, scared of her being hurt and ll explain everything and there wun be any secrets btw them. But ur actions and behaviours are F-ing weird okay? Perhaps u dun understand ur feelings once again, u 've got everything mixed up. U need me as ur friend,just someone that can be fun and talked to becos u feel comfortable w, but not someone who u wish to treat her as a precious little gem and spend time w for the rest of ur life.
DAMN it! once again i thought that this relationship will be a better one as i ll change for the better and nt regret again, but now i feel that once again, ive been such a fool.
Steffi:)